A Mother's Secrets

you're going through life 

you don't know what you're missing 

but you think you're OK 

(cause that stuff ain't real anyway)

then your eyes get opened get opened real good 

you know what love feels like...it's better than good

you don't know what you're doing

don't know the way 

learn a lot of rules while you're finding your way

and you pray and you pray

do everything they say

to do...believing that it's true

teaching what you know

trying to show

them the way

then one day

your kids start to stray

soon running away

from this love that you've found...

you can't understand how so much pain can stay 

around

and injure your heart

tearing you apart 

when you've been trying

so hard

to do it all the right way

now you're feeling ashamed 

you weren't right after all 

and of course it's your fault 

and you just hit a wall of confusion and doubt 

so you back away from it all

but something inside of you knows that it's real

something bigger than you 

and all of your trying 

to get something right 

so you cry out loud 

and get real in your gut 

and you scream for help to get out of this rut 

cause you feel like you're dying

then it happens and love breaks through 

(it happened to me it can happen to you)

suddenly you know something more than before

you know that you know that you know that there's more

still hurting inside because everything's broken

with all of your mess-ups 

and wrong words spoken

you wonder if anything ever was real 

and you try not to feel 

and you're not gonna kneel

and you're not gonna pray

anymore because well what good does it do

he's just gonna do 

what he wants to do

...anyway

so you go back to living 

but now that you know 

that you know what was missing 

you can't get away from this knowing inside

that love is alive 

you just wanna say

there's a much better way

of living

today

out of the blue hope rises back up 

and you dare to believe 

that the thing you messed up 

he will retrieve

 

and those whom you love so much that it hurts 

will some day wake up to the love that you've found

and you hope deep inside that you'll still be 

around...